New Year -- New Decade | Bring on 2020
How did that happen?!
Where did the last decade go?!
Looking back, the last ten years of my life have been pretty freaking amazing! It is so easy to not appreciate your past, but when you have to look back and realize where you were a decade ago, can you honestly say you are the same person?
Ten years ago, I wasn't able to say a lot of things I can now. Now I am a high school graduate, I can drive, I own my own car. I am a three time Canadian Champion, three time Olympic medalist, and World Champion. I'm retired. I've been on incredible tours. I've met numerous people and crossed many paths. I moved out of my home. I got a dog. I've had ups and downs and everything in between. Had some life experiences that I really never saw coming.
But now it is time to take those life experiences, cherish what they taught me, and jump into the next ten years with a fire burning in my soul. I am thrilled, and terrified, to see what the next ten years brings me.
I read this post on one of my favourite instagram pages, @3am.thoughts.official, and it spoke really strongly to me:
"I'M WALKING INTO 2020 with a clear heart and mind. If you owe me, don't worry about it - you're welcome. If you wronged me, it's all good - lesson learned. If you're angry with me, you won. I've let it go. If we aren't speaking, its cool (I love you and I wish you well). If I've wronged you, I apologize, it wasn't intentional. I'm grateful for every experience that I have received. Life is too short for pent up anger, grudges, extra stress, or pain. Forgiveness is a gift to yourself. Make 2020 a year of forgiveness and a season of positivity."
20/20 is perfect vision. Everything is clear. Everything is bright.
For someone who definitely doesn't have perfect vision, the world always is a little fuzzy, and a little dim. If the next decade is as bright as the world gets when I put my contacts in, then I am really excited. I know it's not always going to be comfortable, might get a little irritated, but things will be bright and provide clarity.
This New Years is my New Beginning. My fresh start. It is where I can leave the negatives, hate, fear, and questions behind. No grudges stopping me. The things I want, I won't hesitate to fight for. 2020 is when I might get a little selfish and do what makes me happy. Thrive has my own person. Discover the person I can grow to be. Learn how to smile and laugh without fear of what people think.
More perfect quotes from @3am.thoughts.official,
"GOD SAID: This year I made you strong... Next year I'm going to make you happy."
I am not religious, but this struck me hard. Within the last year, I feel like I discovered a strength in me I didn't know I had. I knew I was resilient - more like stubborn - and I knew I was capable of doing what I put my mind to. But in the last year, I lost that knowledge. I lost my path. But I discovered what I needed to regain that strength... Friends!
"IN 2020, I only want to be around the people who love me, not the ones who pretend they do."
Honesty is a big part of my life. It is also one of the hardest things to be sometimes. In the past few years of my life, I've discovered who my real friends are by the way I can act around them. The ones who pretend, my body goes into fight mode. It's on edge. I can feel that fake-ness and it tears away at my soul. Fight mode for me turns into lying. I don't know why, but it does. So in 2020, I want to find the people who makes me feel comfortable and safe. Loved for who I am and not the lies I spew in moments of panic.
A fresh checklist for the start of your decade...
"HERE'S A REMINDER FOR YOU IN 2020
- Don't chase anyone.
- Don't beg someone to stay.
- Know your worth.
-Save space for people who matter
-Accept what cannot be changed.
- Leave what isn't for you.
- Love yourself.
Enjoy the New Year. Bring on the new decade. Don't be scared to be selfish. We all need to put ourselves first sometimes. Love who you are and be the best version of yourself that you can be. Feel comfortable in your skin - whatever that means to you. Be nice, be kind, don't be scared to love. Love yourself, love your family, love your friends... find the love of your life. Find clarity. Feel bright.